I guess I'm thinking too much. My dad passed away last June. He worked up until about 3.5 months before he passed away. He loved his job. He was one of 2 personal helicopter pilots employed by Donald Trump. My dad was in contact with Rich, (the other pilot) but I don't think he was on the up and up with the severity of his condition ( he had lung cancer that spread everywhere ). I think that he was in a sort of denial sometimes too, never really talking about stuff or giving me any indication of what it was he wanted or how to 'do stuff' after he was gone. I guess he and I are a lot alike in that we don't think that way and would find it pretty morbid to do so, so we block it out or we don't address the issue. Anyway...
I don't know what the word is for what I am feeling but it's not annoyed, angry or irate, it's not sad or depressed or hurt. I can't figure out what it is. But I think it's disappointment.
I am disappointed that his employer didn't even have the decency to call ( I am not talking about Donald Trump, himself. I am talking about the corporation as a whole.) No one called to give condolences, no one sent a note, no one even aknowledged his passing except by sending me forms to prove his death so they could do something with the life insurance and cancel his health insurance.
When my step-father passed away, HIS employer sent us their condolences on paper, in person and with flowers, AND he had been retired for a number of years before he passed away so we didn't really even expect them to, but they did. No, I'm not expecting a huge corporation like Donald Trump's to do this but I really am disappointed that they didn't even aknowledge the fact that my dad worked there, up close and personal FOR Donald Trump for many years by ferrying him here and there in the multi-millon dollar helicopter, going back and forth every few months to train and/or pick up a new helicopter and busting his ass being on-call 24/7 ready to drop whatever it was he was doing to go fly him somewhere.
My dad never had a bad word to say about Donald, EVER. But I feel like he wasn't even appreciated because we didn't hear one thing from him or his corporation. It's sad that while all along he thought he was being appreciated, he wasn't at all. His services appear to have been taken for granted. Very disappointing.